i just wanted to say that i was sorry for overreacting. it just that you gave me so much hope . . . so much hope. i thought i was gonna see you today, but i guess not. i feels like you stood me up, to be with other people. i understand though, i knew that you werent going to have the car today. how stupid am i to think that you would come over, right? you have every right to be mad at me. lately i have been on edge and leaning on you way too much. i guess this shows you how clingy huh?
usually i catch myself at these moments, but not these past few days . . .
sometimes i wonder if it bothers you knowing that i am crying and you are laughing with your friends. i wonder if you think of me when youre getting into someones car and im trying to get out of my bad mood. what do you think of when im crying and youre sitting there silent? do you try to think up of ways to cheer me up or think "wow why is she doing this again?"
its been my fault lately that these things are getting to me, im letting them punch me in the face and eat me away. i know i shouldnt do this, i want to be good for you, not make you feel bad. im sorry :'[ i just get my own hopes up too much.
i bet you, that you wont ever read this . . . .
Thursday, April 22, 2010
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