Note to something I will never repeat.

Oh the things I could say to you now. I just do not know how and why many enjoy your poisonous taste of words you spit out on the daily. Maybe they are all too busy being mesmerized by that vein, synthetic shell of yours? And perhaps you have them fooled? It takes so much effort to try to portray yourself as so humble and with much humility but crack the surface to find out that underneath you are none other than purely narcissistic. Never to change. Never to improve.

Just a note and nothing more, a simple rant I dying to be let out for years.

Dear Chris,

I wish you were here right now to talk me through all of this. I have so much I want to convey but no voice to let it all out. I need help. I want closure with everything I'm feeling but I don't know how to do it! This frustration is killing me and I am tired of crying at night because of it. I feel like I barely have options to run to...
What do I do now? I'm so lost.

Sincerely, Shannen