underneath it all...

i find myself choking on my thoughts and conflicting wants. each thought has accumulated to the point where i feel as though i am about to bust out in tears at any moment if i dont keep myself busy and away from them. too many what if's, different angles, and twists and turns for me to handle. and here i am trying to keep my balance with all this weight on my shoulders. i am still running scared.

back to black

i feel like i dont deserve to voice my problems and worries out anymore. so i feel like crying silently shall be the only comfort i will turn to from now on.

i need to keep myself occupied while all of this goes through my head.

black rabbit

kill me. he deserves so much more than what i have to offer. im tired of crying. im tired of pretending that im strong... i want the easy way out....

ive been so heated but i cant tell you about that....