What to do...

Between all the shouting and fights do they ever look to each other and think "this person is so amazing"? Do they hold hands under the table and believe that they were each other's "one"? I wonder if they kiss each other goodnight and thank God that they are still together after all this time. In between all the fighting I wonder if there is still actual love there.

There's so much fighting in this house now, even more than before. Every night there's so much crying. All the accusations bellow out of the pits of mistrust and echo in the valley of overreaction and worry. There is just so many WHY's and I'm sorries to be passed around. The air is so thick with anger and longing. Mixed emotions are all too common in this house. They both want it to be done but they can't let their pride go.

In the movies they fix their problems, give each other a big kiss, and a sigh of relief right in time for the credits to roll. It will never happen like that in real life. My psychology teacher once said "it is better to have a divorced couple than a continuous fighting one" and I believe this surely to be true. I just wish everything can end up like the movies. I want a happy ending.

Please God help our family.