Dear Daddy,

how do i start this? how do i start to tell you how betrayed i feel? i try my best not to think about it all. i do not want to think of you that way. you are my dad, the kind, caring and funny man who would always make me peanut sandwiches for lunch ever since i was little. you have been there to make sure i was content. you had always been on my side to guide and protect me from the world's negative influences. you were the one who understood me and all the shit i go through! you are my daddy and it was not suppose to happen like this!
but you only tried to make everyone happy right? every action you played out was made with mere love and regret.  i understand that. plus, our home life was not exactly the happiest place on earth with all the fighting and stress going around. never the less i looked up to you for being strong through it all with your smile on your face every time you came home. you gave kisses to all of us and softly whispered i love you in our ears as we slept. out of all of this good and bad, i have never thought that you would make an attempt to try to try to leave your family for them.
what am i to say to you? im just so angry and frustrated because of this. on one hand you just wanted to give her a real father and on other hand, in order to do that you would then stop being ours. i just don't know what to do now? i just don't want to hand you over to her.... im struggling and it is damn complicated.

i love you,

shannen