no matter what happens i need to think positive. these hormones are driving me crazy. cant you tell? one second i think im a mess and the next i feel like i have all my shit together. i dont know what is going on. i just want to step off this roller coaster and finally relax my mind. it is starting to fill itself up to the brim with all the constant contradicting, bringing my self esteem higher, and then making it fall back down with negative memories.
i am trying my best to keep my spirits up by making myself occupied though out the day. in the end i feel like i just need a good hug and reality check to see my real sense of worth . . . i just dont know when its going to happen. till then i am going to ignore the hormones. gosh i am such a girl, i hate it.
i want a hug.
