Vent

it wasnt the brightest of all days. the potential throwing up at 4 AM (damn costco meat never gonna eat you again) to guilt trips that cockblock blindly. too tired, too sick, too hungry. i think im getting fatter by the day. thanks food you dont need to be that good tasting :/


there are things i have to get off my chest today. it has been urking me for quite a while that you dont know what youre doing at all.

ok this is to you anonymous person:
i know were good friends but you need to know when to stop. sometimes its just too much for me to handle. i am all ears for listening to you vent, but like everyone else sometimes you need to learn how to deal with your problems head on and alone. this may sound harsh but youre not a baby anymore, there will be times when it is only going to be you and only you. sort things out. take things step by step. be rational. think of others. use morals. something better. stop WHINING. there are some sort of bullet points to live your life by.
sweetheart there are other ways to deal with what youre going though. yes this does sound mean as well but i dont know how to say this to you. there are other kids in this world going though the exact same thing. yes, yes, it doesnt make the hurting period any shorter or hurt any less than it does now.
this world is a harsh and we all have to bulk up fast to train ourself for it. people will get mad at you, parents will fight, friends become distant. your atittude does not help at all between this. all of what you say and how you say it has a consiquence. it can make people think differently of you and have this perspective of "wow this person is really immature." carry yourself at a higher level than that. have confidence.
on top of all of this learn your place. im trying to be a good friend and a girlfriend at the same time. yes, youre more than a good friend at times thank you for that. but if you remembered from the past, its the littlest things that make the most impact. look at the littlest things you do please. you should learn not to butt into things or take them like you own it. a thing called manners are still required here.


thinking about all of this, i think i need a break from you for a while. just to recollect myself. to make this negativity that i have about you just slide away. i need to be over it. i cant tell you this in person. i couldnt never gather enough courage to do this all by myself.