i dont know what to say in this blog. its like damn a lot has happen since the last time i posted anything up.
well anyways, i am now 17. looking for something better in life, something to make me better. oh the choices and roads i have traveled to get me where i am now. eff my life. shits soooo slow.
i wish you could have seen the lights, sounds, and felt taste with me in the city of lost angels. i dont even know if that was right but oh well MY BLOG MY RULES.
heres my recap of my year. boy "G" ill find you and kill you some day. boy "C" youre gonna get your dick cut off for what youve done to me and all the other girls. boy "Z" whatever fuck you, you were never good enough anyways, lying sack of shit. boy "B" im still in love with you.
ok then for the year without the boys. i have lost friends, found friends, lost friends again. learned what i want and what others what of me. i realized what they thought of me and what i should think of my self at that point. there has been nights where ive screamed my heart out for a person to come back and had it placed back in by the softest and warmest of hands. ive been beaten down physically and mentally and i have still come out with wisdom. i had my share of bad cake that made me through up what i never needed in the first place. ive been in and out of love and back in again. others have h
eld my hand all the way and others were absent for months now. scars have healed and friendship bracelets are placed over them, while the best friends buy clothes and shoes to cover wounds all up. ive worn down shoes, worn others down as well, worn other peoples clothing, worn down myself. but then in time i buffed myself back up to the shining me that i always try to see in the mirror. i am yin and yang, the good and the bad, the "i guess" moments, those i dont know what to say anymore person, that girl who still doesnt know what to do. i have grown up though, i can tell you that.
