i do not want you to see this.i want to be that one that makes you smile.
i am trying to become less selfish, lately its not working as well as i thought.
i wanna be that one that makes you happy when you are sad.
i do not want to end up like her when i am older.
i wanna be the person who does not overreact.
i prayed for my parents to look at things through my eyes every chance i get.
i wish i was that person who you tell everyone about.
i prayed that my sister would not end up like me at all.
i wanna be productive.
i want to me smarter.
i am sorry for being difficult sometimes.
i want to go out more.
i do not have a fake smile, i just try to push all of my worries out of my head till they disappear.
i wish i could go back to the past to make you the first.
i notice that it sounds really emo when i say "i do not like what i see in the mirror" but sometimes it is true.
i want to make you never regret me.
i want you to know that sometimes in my life, i just want to lay in the grass and just do absolutely nothing.
i wish i could forget.
i hope that one day i wont be as shallow as i am now.
i wish you could tell me everything.
i miss that detail of sincerity when someone speaks to me.
i wish i had much better advice to give you.
i want my hair to grow out more.
i need someone to listen.
i need time to myself, but i am scared of siking myself out during that time.
i wish i was social.
i wish i could please everyone.
i wish i did not regret.
i want you to notice that it takes about 3 times of asking me "whats wrong?" before i actually tell you.
i honestly feel like i do not deserve anything that i have right now.
i feel like i am not doing my part.
i know i complain too much, but i can not tell anyone this because i do not want to be a bother.
i do not want to fight with anyone anymore.
i wish i could stop being so negative.
i hope one day i will be everything she wants me to be.
i hope on that day i will be everything that i, SHANNEN wants me to be.
i want to be up to date on everything.
i want you to not get quiet.
i wish i could go on a date with you, it is honestly killing me.
i want to fix all your worries.
i want to be that fun person everyone always wants to talk to.
i do not want to let you down anymore.
i wish i could open up more.
i miss having the feeling of being a good person.
i want to get over my jealousy.
i hope one day that i turn out to be stronger than this.
i always wanted to be that person you would tell all your stories to - good or bad.
i am scared to have a debut to find out that i do not have as many friends as i thought i did.
i cry way more than you think i do, i am a cry baby.
i always wished i could be that person you go to make you happy when you are sad.
i am afraid to talk because i am scared i might say something wrong.
i found out the real reason why they say "the past is what shapes us to what we are now."
i want to tell that certain person "everything you have said to me, tried to give me advice about, said it was for my own good, etc., etc., i already knew. so you just wasted your time and you arent that charming and smart as you think. thanks for everything ."
