woop woop

its pretty complicated. my mind is full and jumbled up from the past few days.

you are getting better at venting and telling your side of the story. i need that. im glad that we got this out of the way. i relle am.
bryan you know that im sorry i cant go out as much as other girls. you know i am.
i love you baby, i just want you to be happy. thats all i need. im happy im with you because you are my salvation. you are on my mind 24/7.
i feel as though it should get all smart atm:
it was like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. it was a moment of no utter guilt, nothing can stop me. for that moment, you held me as though life itself depended on it. although i couldnt breathe, it was fine. i didnt care anymore, nothing else matters now a days. "just you, only you" i said to myself.

ima probably
look back at my post
one day and think
"damn shannen, you're a fuckin n00b."