one of the things i fear the most is that of not being able to use my full potential. there is this underlying feeling that i know i could do so much more but the question is: how do i do it? i have realized that i am slowly but surely becoming such a lazy fuck and it is killing me. it comes to the point where i know all this but i have given into the habit of turning a blind's eye towards the subject. i want to do more but i choose the easier route to just lay in bed and forget. i have the urge to be productive but yet i lack the willpower. i know the route i want to be on but the only thing holding me back is the fact that i have no drive... what has happen to me? where is my ambition? why cant i push myself? i do the bare minimum to convince myself that i am staying afloat when in reality i am already underwater and i am drowning.
