why do i feel so lost right now? no initial plan or anything for the future. i noticed that i overcompensate this by trying to find a way control my relationship more. but when things in this department get out of hand i start going crazy. i wish there was a way to get it through my stubborn head to do something or run away to start over somewhere else. fuck. im lost, im broke, my school life is shit, my friendships feel like they are going south, and i dont know how to get out of this funk. gaahh maybe it is easier to complain about the troubles in my life than to actually do something about it. i wish it was the opposite of that.
thoughts of thought
forbidden things
deep questions that belong to what if...
