i still think about you from time to time. i wonder whether or not you would still laugh at the same jokes, listen to the same music, wear the same clothes, have the same dreams, smoke the same cigarettes (even though i would so totally yell at you for it) if you were still here. i wonder if you would be happy right now.its been so long now since i have seen your actual face. i dont really remember your laugh anymore. i cant hear your voice in my head at all. its all so hazy, like you are just part of a dream that i never wanted to forget. but in time, like everything else, i feel as though am going to forget every detail of you all together. i am so afraid that.
every time i listen to that song, i cant help but to miss you. chills run up my arms and then i start to tearing up. "dont feel bad for me, i want you to know deep in the cell of my heart i really want to go. there is another world. there is a better world. there must be." haha you picked the perfect song for me to remember you by, didnt you? you knew me all so well that i had a need for constant reassurance and with this song you had an idea that its too perfect for the likes of me. in your little ways you still let me know that you are okay. i try not to be needy after this song but still on top of everything i miss you. i do wish i could see you one more time just to remember you at least a bit better than i do now.
i hope where ever you are, you still remember me.
