no matter how happy i am right now this always finds a way to creep back into my life. for the past couple days ive been getting back into that mood again of feeling as though i am not good enough, particularly feeling as though i am not pretty enough. how typical right? a girl with self esteem issues. i dont know, sometimes i wish i had a better body, had a prettier smile, and was flat out gorgeous. i know i am not ugly and i know i am not beautiful either. i am somewhere in the middle, the place where there is always room for more improvements.i know this may come off as something stupid and people may think i am just complaining/seeking attention but this is really how i feel. a couple people may call me pretty but i honestly dont see it. all i see is "room for improvement." insert bigger breasts here, exchange these eyes, fix that stomach, adjust that smile, take away that blundering attitude, hmmm lets just erase all of this and redo everything, shall we?
you know those girls who dont even need to put make up or fix their hair, basically some girl with fuckin swag. i wish i was her. confidence emanating from her as she walks into the room. she can talk up a storm in any situation so she isnt awkward. she is always fun, loving, and being insecure with herself is the last thing on her mind. she can go out with her friends when she wants to and she is down right funny when she does. i wish i was her . . .
