i am so tired and i want something new. even if i have to go through it all alone i honestly will be fine with it. i often have these vivid fantasies of saving up all my money and just buying a plane ticket to a place so far away from here. but, with all the responsibilities of school, family, and whatnot, am i just trying to run away from it all? i can not cope with stress at all. maybe i just need to drive somewhere far for a little bit to get that new perspective on life. maybe i have to come to terms with how unsatisfied i am with where i am in life right now.
