the big question

it has never actually crossed my mind before but for the pass couple days i have been wondering if i even want to get married one day? i see what it has done to my parents. all they do is argue over the slightest things like papers being not where its suppose to be, a sudden change of voice, eating habits, and random other shit. then, it always escalates up to the same thing, them saying that they hate each other at the very end. they walk away from one another and mutter horrible things under their breath as they stomp their feet up and down the stairs. i dont want that. i dont want any of that. if that is how marriage is going to end up in the very end then i dont want to be apart of it. they do have their sparks of hope though. they make fun of one another and watch movies sometimes and for an hour or so they look like they are happy. That is the thing, they only look happy on the outside. For me, I don't want to rezent someone that I am suppose to be in love with for all time.
maybe it is just me? maybe i am just looking for some attention about this? or for something drastic to change my mind about this whole thing? but right now i seem to be on the fence about the subject. It is just a thought.