i had another nightmare about you. i keep having these nightmares about you. i always wake up angry and then i begin to question things even more than i should. all in all, im not sure what it means. maybe its god's way of trying to tell me something like what happened before? i just do not know anymore. i hope it isnt that. i just really hope its nothing at all but my overreacting imagination. im tired. i wish i could sleep without these worries to knocking on my door. sigh, i just hope im making you happy.
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2AM knows me the best. it keeps all my secrets and wishes that i dare not to speak out loud. it knows what i yearn for and tries its best to hush my uncertainties. 3AM eases its way in to try to help lull me to sleep, making my eyes heavy while my mind tries to fight off its advances. i give in to 4AM and lay my distress over to it.
in the back of my mind i cant help but think,
"its almost summer again...
im scared."
