Fighting for the Good

we are fighting to make things work.

a bit complex, if i dont say so myself.

my dad hugged me tight, kissed my forehead and told me "if you love one another you both will fight for what you believe in and you should believe in your relationship working out. all couples simply fight and that it is a natural thing to do, so i dont think you need to worry about anything. it will be a struggle but at the end of the day you should be the only person in his mind . . . sometimes the full moon can make people crazy and do things that they are not suppose to. you have your times like that, i know he does too . . . all relationships, like plants, need a little mending and tending to from time to time and if you do not, you are gonna end up with handfuls of weeds and ugly shrubs in your relationship. but if you tend the relationship too much you are going to cause him to stray away from you even more. so give everything time to flourish and grow . . . you are an amazing girl and if he doesnt see that, its his loss. if he doesnt see that baby, hes crazy because you are the most beautiful girl in the world. and if that time comes when he does go, i will always be here for you . . . always baby."

thank you so much daddy. you are the best dad in the world. thank you for giving me these words that will certainly get me through the night.

i hope you are read this. i really hope you are not talking to some other girl on the phone tonight because i made you mad/annoyed of me and my unsettling feelings . . . :'[ please just dont confine to another girl.

it is the time of night when i miss you the most. i contemplate to myself what if i never brought that up, what would we be doing right now. i would probably be texting you right now, telling you how much i love you and i miss you. basically blowing up my phone with just you. i would tell you that i am willing to take care of my sick boyfriend, no matter if i get sick or not. you would call me cute names while i would giggle to them silently. i would save your texts on my phone so i can look back on them when i miss you and smile even more about how you are so sweet to me. we would be joking around with each other over the phone. id tell you random facts and what i did and saw that day. you would sing and rap to me and i would laugh at you when you would mess up a line. late at night i would be falling soundly asleep tonight to your guitar and not to the worries filling up my mind. and i will hear your faint voice say "i love you, goodnight. muah." through speakerphone.

sorry, i just really miss my boyfriend right now
i would do anything to talk to him
i cant help but to be so weak for him