Late Sunday night: we talked about our life together. it was one of those nostalgic talks about the future, marriage, the past, and how we come to be today. we talked about how we will never know who we will marry. it is pretty bittersweet knowing and accepting the fact that we will eventually break everything off to find the "one" and that person will most likely not be you. its that accepting that concept part that killed us for a split second. it was a sudden realization to what is to come and it was comforting to know that we felt the same way about it: upset but we just wanted one another to be happy . . . even though i hoped that your future girl would be fat :P
we have grown up so much since we first starting going out. in a way we both are still different: you are a realist and i am still a dreamer. i told you that in the past i tried to be a realist like you so i wouldnt get hurt as much but you reassured me that i shouldnt and that i should just be myself because thats how i am most comfortable.
you told me that you wished that you can feel the same way as i do about our relationship. i could hear your breaths on the other line become dimmer and dimmer. i could hear how upset you are through your tone of voice. i stated to cry like always right? ive had the same wish for the longest time but to hear your confess that you want the same thing as i do, i couldnt help it. i needed to cry. it always comforts me to know that you feel the same way. its a breath of fresh air and a reminder of the fact that you do still care about me and our relationship.
i fell asleep that night to the comforting sounds of your breath and rustling of blankets from the other end of the phone.
Monday morning texts:
Me: What time are you coming babe?
You: Real soon cutie pie :]
Me: Hehehe okie dokie baby
You: Okay just wait cutie butt
Me: Iight bubble butt
You: Real soon cutie pie :]
Me: Hehehe okie dokie baby
You: Okay just wait cutie butt
Me: Iight bubble butt
you took care of me without any if's, and's, or but's this day. i was having woman troubles and you were there to massage them away. the cooling hands of comfort, always there when i need them. we had also watched a movie together. you could have simply finished the movie when i left to go back to school but you didnt. you waited for me patiently till i got back to your house so we can finish it together. you know those little things that make me happy, that attention to the details that always put a smile on my face, that was most certainly it.
Tuesday: it is those moments when were just rolling around your bed laughing and playing around with each other. just like in the movies you can definitely feel the love emanating from that room. im just there in your arms so delightfully happy and you pulling my bangs back with your hand. with your arm under my neck you reach over and to touch my forehead while we are play fighting. i realized that you were touching my "widows peak" area, i couldnt help but laugh so hard. (you know why haha) we spent the remaining time in the bed ya . . . haha
when we ate you had a silly idea of pretending like we were rich people. so we then proceeded eating at each of the long ends of the table. how proper of us right? these days with you give me so much hope for the next days to come.
Today: i woke up late to your text message saying that you were already on your way to my house. i didnt know that you actually took the bacon breakfast seriously. but then again, youre always serious about bacon. with disheveled hair and eye boogers still intact, i attempted to give you what i had promised late last night. even though the bacon was more burnt more than usual. you ate most of it while you showed me the choreo that you learned from the workshop the night before. i always love watching you dance. not only doesnt it make me proud of you because you are doing what you love to do but it honestly makes me even more happy to know that i am your girlfriend. you are such an amazing dancer, please dont ever sell yourself short about that.
its the little things like saying "okay hold my folder so you can look cute," actually holding hands while letting me swing it back and forth, or stepping on dried leaves with me that make my day ten times better than usual.
thank you so much for the food baby. it was DELISHHH. and i cant thank you enough for the past couple days, it really has changed my perspective of you and our relationship. this is what ive been needing. i hope one day soon you can feel a bit of what you have felt before because honestly baby when you do you will have that sigh of relief and you can feel the weight of the world come off your shoulders, i swear.
i love you baby.
